Exhaustion

Hey out there, its been awhile since I posted last and thought it would be a good time to post. Lately I have been thoroughly exhausted, with trying to keep up with work, and our daily running around and the suprisingly exhausting process of trying to get it through my thick skull that more than likely I will not be able to reenlist in the Reserves. All this has added up to me being very un-Masterly (if that is a term), and that has been putting some undue strain on Cherie and myself both. Hopefully after drill this coming weekend I will be able to catch up on my rest and things will get back to normal and maybe even improve.

On a side note, I am going to join the search for a second slave for our relationship, and am completely unsure of what I want to look for since there are things I like in women that Cherie doesn't like ( and I want Cherie to be attracted to her at the very least).

Questions and Answers

Well Lights has another blog on LiveJournal and some of the people on there asked some questions about me and my views, so I figured what the heck and am going to post some responses.

When did he first realize this side of him?
I realized this aspect of my personality some time ago, but kept putting it off due to the way I was raised to view relationships and most aspects of life. I guess I truly realized it during my deployment and through meditation. I had some interactions with people in the lifestyle online during that time and researched all sorts of stuff about it.

How far does he take it into his daily interactions with women?
 I treat women with respect and dignity in my daily interactions. Honestly I feel just because I am a master doesn't mean I am better than anyone person. Respect earns trust and submission better than fear and anger.

When did you first learn of BDSM and how did you react?
 I learned about BDSM actually when I was very young, so I didn't understand it  like I do now. I was raised very conservative and thought alot of things were very wrong. But when I realized that it was something that I was interested in, I researched it and got more and more excited  about it. Finally I learned that it was a good thing when all parties are consenting.

What led him to identifying as and becoming a Master?

I initially identified as a Dominant, but as Lights and my relationship developed, her and I both decided on trying to incorporate a M/s relationship into things and I have become more and more of a Master for Lights as I go, though I still make mistakes.

What are his expectations from his submissive?
My expectations for Lights and any of my submissives/slaves (should I have more in the future) is for them to be respectful at all times to me and those that treat them with respect, to do what they are told quickly and efficiently, and to be open to change in all aspects so we can grow and learn.

Given a choice of only one form of "punishment" what would it be?
I don't like using punishments, but when I do I like using writing assignments with them giving what they did wrong, the reasoning behind it and what they are going to do in the future to correct it. Physical punishments aren't needed most of the time, I haven't had a need for one yet. 

That's all I got for now, I hope you enjoy and take care.

Stay True
 Alpha Hellion

Masterly Things

So Cherie (my little name for my slave Lights) suggested that I write down some of the things that I felt I had done that were "Masterly"  recently, and I think its a good idea, so here I go.

Recently I have been making more of the final say so in decisions that are the more important ones. This was my biggest problem I feel, I have a tendency to be very relaxed and very co-dependent on decisions. I do need to work on it still, after all so many years of learning is hard to break.

I think I mentioned this at some point earlier, but Lights has asked to find a woman to have a relationship with and be the dominant of. I agreed to this and have agreed to stay as hands free as possible. Eventually I would hope this would lead to a second slave in our household, but first Lights has to get ok with the idea of sharing me, hopefully this will help.

Stay True
Alpha Hellion

Relationships

Lights (my slaves online name) recently asked me if she could try out dominating another person, a female particularly. She wants to find someone she can be friends with and still be dominant over, whether this turns sexual or not is up to her I guess. She wants me to have limited contact with this, which I am OK with. I am excited to see my slave grow and learn about herself. I won't force my joining in because of promises I made early on in our relationship, but at some point I would like to join in a nonsexual form, maybe dominating them both at the same time. I love having new experiences and I feel that this one would be really good for me to see if I am OK with polyamorous experiences, because I know Lights is interested in that, even though she isn't OK with sharing me hehe. Well there is my nonsensical writing for the day. Hope You enjoy

Stay True
Alpha Hellion