Monday, May 14, 2012

Feeling off, way off

I haven't posted in awhile for a reason, I just have been off, way off and been stubbornly trying to deal with it myself. It is affecting all sorts of things with me. I am not getting restful sleep, I have little desire to do things I want to do, I didn't even want to write yesterday when I had a good idea and new pens. I am slipping back into depression and I don't know why. Things have been going great, at least I think they have been. I know I should talk to someone about it, but it is so damn hard to trust someone I don't know with it, it is even hard for me to admit this to Cherie, and I trust her explicitly.

So, Cherie, when you read this, I am sorry that I haven't been able to tell you until recently how off I have been.

Sunday, May 6, 2012


Cherie had a freakout this evening and it affected a young woman who we both have been talking to. We have talked about it, but I have a feeling that I was not aware of what was going the whole time, which gives me a "scratch". We will see how things go.

Thursday, May 3, 2012

Jealousy and the aftermath

If you read Cheries blog, and most of you do, you know about her jealousy incident, and how we handled it. Well I would like to put some of my thoughts on the incident down just so she can see them, because lately I haven't been wanting to speak on many things.

First, when this happened and she told me what was happening in her mind, I was worried. Cherie is dealing with alot of things with her depression, she doesn't need to have to deal with being jealous about me talking with one of our friends as well. Second, I got the feeling that while she wants to be poly, she wants her partners to be monogamous with her. She denies this, but I still get that feeling.. Those are just acouple things I had come in my mind. Hope everyone has a good day.

P.S Avengers tonight, super excited for it!